10 Years

Might resurrect this.  Not totally sure.  (Almost) everything is awful, so brain dumping somewhere might be helpful.  We'll see.  I just noticed that the preview shows the blog looks like ass on a mobile device.  If that can't be fixed, I might have to go to Wordpress or something.

Same Sex Marriage

I should probably stay quiet on this.  I'm somewhat caught in a paradox where I've been upset by people expressing sentiments I disagree with, but in speaking out am I not doing the exact same thing to them?  That isn't really the point though I guess.  I think I just need to get a few things off my chest.  Besides, looking at the flat line graph of the view history for this blog, who's going to read it anyway?  If you're a family member who is disturbed by my views, you have every right.  Please just don't engage me in a debate about this.  My overall hope in this is for people to have respect and understanding, even when they disagree.

365 Days Without a Dad

I still find myself shocked by the suddenness of my dad's death a year ago.  When I look at his pictures, especially the most recent ones, I still find myself perplexed by the fact that he's gone.

All the Time

Taking things for granted is something everybody does from time to time.  I was just thinking to myself, in a most idealistic fashion, that I don't take things for granted anymore.  That's not really true.  Living in a state of acute gratitude for the things and people you hold dear would be exhausting.  It's natural to become comfortable with the blessings you have in life.  Life can be cruel in that it will lull you into comfortable complacency, but then everything can change in an instant.  I know this isn't a very insightful or original thought.  Still, it kind of feels that way when you're the one it happens to.

Shock

There are whiskers on my dad's beard trimmer still.  It sits where he left it, in the charging cradle on the counter in his bathroom.  Each time I notice it, I'm struck by the notion that they were him and my grief is renewed.

Grief and Education, Part One

Grieving for my father is something I was entirely unprepared for. Prior to his death, the only thing that even comes close to comparing is when we had to put my cat Bob to sleep. That cat and I were best friends for 16 years and I mourned his death like that of a brother. The loss of my dad makes that look like a trip to Disneyland.

Happy Mother's Day

This is my mom.  The picture here was actually taken last Mother's day.  I'd like to use this space to put down a few words about this special lady.  There's nobody I know more deserving of her own holiday.

What did I do today?

Today has been an okay day.  I woke up this morning feeling a little flat, so I decided to take a sick day to relax.  In retrospect it feels like a very lazy decision, but I don't particularly care.

Searching for usefulness.

I've always liked writing, and I've always enjoyed sharing with people.  For some reason I've continually struggled with producing a consistent blog.  I was just about to say that I don't understand why this happens, but I do.  Life has a knack for getting in the way of things.  There are only so many hours in the day and writing blog posts hasn't ever been something I prioritize over sleeping.

Checking in. Again. New Developments

In light of how many hits this blog gets, despite the fact that I haven't posted on it in almost a year, I feel I should say something.

I haven't really had the blogging bug until about 20 or so days ago, when I started my other blog Chronicles of a Casual.  It's obviously about World of Warcraft, so it's not for everybody.  I've been enjoying posting content and getting responses from the Warcraft community.  The blog its self doesn't get a lot of comments, but I feel I'm slowly integrating into the Twitter/Warcraft blogging community.  That's fun for me, so I hope those of you who are anti-WoW can take this at face value.

All that being said, I'd still like to contribute here as well.  Warcraft (thankfully) isn't my entire life and I feel certain subjects should be partitioned from each other.  I'm going to make an effort to post here for those of you who continue to come check this journal out.  Thanks for coming and I hope to contribute more here soon.

Just checking in

Dear blog, don't worry I haven't forgotten about you.  I'm not going to do a real post today because I'm working on Christmas shopping!  Yay!  I'm going to be so happy when I'm all done (which wont be today.) 

Noteworthy complaints: websites bugging out when I'm trying to buy stuff; outrageous shipping costs; still not having real present ideas for some people; still not being able to provide present ideas to some people.  I suck at wanting stuff I guess.  My Mom doesn't know it yet, but she's getting me a $70 hoodie that's being shipped from the UK.  Note: $25 of that $70 is shipping.  Frown.

Hopefully I'll post something in here worth reading sometime soon.  I'm currently in the middle of a week long vacation from work.  My attempts at productivity have so far been pretty pathetic.  I think I'm actually going to leave the house today.

-Colin